I Really Do

A part of me always wishes I could have you all to myself, I really do. I want to hold you and feel all my sorrows float away. I want the smell of your perfume to be all over my clothes. I want all your traits that I’ve romanticised to be real, but I’ve seen […]

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I was born with a number practically branded on my forehead. I didn’t think much of it as a kid, but as I grew older I started realising that people around me also had numbers on their foreheads. In school, we started learning about the mathematical value of these numbers. When I looked around me, […]

لبيروت

Before 6:07pm on August 4, 2020: I had submitted my final presentation and was working on discussing it the next day. My siblings were complaining to mom about how boring life in quarantine is. We were living like we always did, trying to survive each day. The mental toll we had had to endure was […]

All Eyes on Deck

Life does not feel real right now. It feels as though we are currently sitting in a movie theatre watching the worst film ever made. The production is flawed, the soundtrack is off tune, the storyline is all over the place, and the main characters do not fit the roles. Donald Trump is the president […]

Welcome Back

It’s been a while since I’ve accepted new guests. I was feeling quite lonesome, yet it was also really peaceful. No worries. No fights. No drama. No hatred. But alas! Despite the current lockdown, I saw something rush through to get in. I hadn’t seen it in years, and so it took me a few […]

Out of Control

I’ve already had the next ten years of my life figured out. I know where I want to continue studying. I know what I want to work. I know how many kids I want. For as long as I can remember, I’ve had everything around me organised the way I want it. I love to […]

To Myself

I raised my head and looked in front of me for the first time. I saw a figure standing merely 50cm away. It looked back at me, staring deep into my soul. It was beautiful. She was beautiful. She was as tall as I am, her long brown hair brushing against her soft face. Her […]

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12:30am I feel nothing. I’m not happy. I’m not sad. I’m not angry. It’s just nothing. Nothing is worth laughing about. Nothing is worth crying over. Nothing is worth yelling at. I just couldn’t care less about everything around me anymore. I’ll do my art projects haphazardly because honestly what’s the point. I’ll talk to […]

My Eternal Break

Oh, how I long for my eyes to close. For my body to stop moving. For my mind to relax. When will I receive my eternal slumber? When will I rest? When will I disconnect from this life? When will my soul find peace? Oh, how I wish to dream. To dream of fairies, fountains, […]

The Haze In My Head

Choking. Aching. Tears streaming. Heart hurting. Legs shaking. It’s as if I’m in some sort of trance. My hands are weak. I don’t know how I’m holding my pen and writing. It hurts. Everything hurts. It hurts to think. It hurts to eat. It hurts to walk. Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. I’m drained. Exhausted. Fed up […]